Thank you so much for reaching out about this. We are so sorry to hear about your loss. It sounds like you are worried about the feelings you are having around the loss of your mom. Losses can be incredibly hard and it is normal and natural for anyone to experience the feelings you are having. Grief is how we process our losses and heal. There is no right way to grieve. As for what you can do, some people find it helps to acknowledge that grief is healthy and okay, or to allow yourself the space and time to feel the emotions you are experiencing. Some young people find it helpful to talk to a trusted adult, other friends who can relate to what you are going through, or a mental health professional. It is okay to be patient and gentle with yourself. It may take time but with the help of others, you will get through this!